Inner Strength

Although it may not seem like it, lately I have been going through a very challenging period, which is full of huge and fundamental changes in my life. From day to day everything changes and becomes the opposite. Everything I thought was certain is no longer certain and everything I thought I knew I probably don't know. It all makes me afraid of an uncertain future. From not knowing what will happen to me tomorrow. I don't know how I'm going to pay all the bills or if this is the last time I'm seeing my loved one. Sometimes I don't even know if what I'm doing has any meaning.

I need to find myself again. I need to find my strength, guidance, self-love and worth. It seems to me that I no longer perceive the path I'm on. I walk on autopilot with a head full of thoughts that blind me and instead of reality, I see a world full of illusions, lies and doubts that awaken old wounds in me.

It is very complicated and it hurts a lot. Nevertheless, I see that it is meant to be. Life doesn't give us anything we can't handle. It all makes us stronger and better. I didn't choose an easy life, and even with all the pain, I wouldn't have it any other way in the end. It teaches me to live one day at a time and trust without fail that I am taken care of. Every single moment I have a choice. I can choose to stay in my head or choose to ignore the thoughts and be happy. In the moments when I don't give in to my ego, I start to see the world more colorfully, including all the new opportunities that I can take advantage of.

All the strength I need to overcome this difficult period is always in me. Actually, thanks to everything that is happening to me, I can find that strength. To realize that I even have it. These hard times allow me to see the beast that lies dormant within me. I wake it up and ask it to come into my life and become a part of me. Now that I have it by my side all the time, nothing can stop me.

When we make big changes in our lives to achieve what we dream of, our egos go crazy. He is trying to do everything in his power to prevent us from making that change. The bigger the change, the harder it can be. I knew all this beforehand, and yet it really wasn't easy. We have to endure these crazy moments in order to gain strength and leave old fears, negative thoughts and patterns behind in the past.