I Allow Myself to Receive
I allow myself to accept
A continuation of the painting Money, which expresses, not least, my realization that I alone am the one who is preventing me from experiencing my dreams and abundance. With my feelings of unworthiness and beliefs about living in scarcity, I have not given finances room to flow into my life, even though they want to.
This is exactly the theme of this new artwork. It is about receiving abundance.
I allow myself to receive…
Freedom
A vision of absolute freedom
This series characterizes all my work and has been fundamental in my career.
It is my vision of absolute freedom.
Above all, financial freedom, because I've always felt that the lack of it is what binds me the most in life.
I actually felt like a slave with a sliver of hope that I decided to paint.
Then I began to change my beliefs about money and work, until a few months later I sold several paintings at once, including this one.
This made me believe even more in my ability to make a living as an artist and the time came to make a big change in my life.
Due to the great success of these paintings, I decided to create a whole series.
Dreamer
Start dreaming
Do you want to make a change in your life? Do you want to create or experience something new?
Start dreaming.
Everything that has ever been created, invented or built started in one way.
It started with a vision in someone's mind.
A dream, if you will.
In the mind of someone who has allowed themselves to step out of their ingrained ways of thinking. So stop dwelling on your past experiences and start again...
Death in the Mirror
Reconciliation with death
Money
Connection with money
What is money? How do you feel about money? How do you relate to it? Have you ever talked to it? Does it want to tell you something?
I didn't think much about these things when I was younger. Then I learned in books that it might be a good idea to look at my relationship with the energy of money by writing a letter. I've written a few over the years and each time I felt a shift. It also showed me how erratic my behavior was towards it.
Then one night I saw an Instagram story from Domè Moon (@dome_moon_art) who shared how it helped her to visualize the energy of money as someone she had a close relationship with. It helped her see the dynamics of her relationship with them even more clearly, and it was something that helped her the most…
Flower of the Sun
The beauty of nature
I painted this painting based on a photo I found on the internet. I was so captivated by this photo that I decided I had to paint it. I've always been a bit fascinated by the beauty of nature in flowers, and here this sunflower is shining even though it's nighttime. I also like the so-called depth of field, which refers to how much of something is in focus. In this case, the background is very blurry, so much so that the stars in the night sky look like bright dots. The only thing in focus in the foreground is the sunflower. I used everything I've learned in my life to paint this painting. It's a painting on the edge of my current skills, and it's more or less the first time I've painted a background that's blurry. I even bought makeup brushes to help me with it. Painting the sunflower itself was a bit easier. But it took me longer. It reminded me of the paintings Daisy and Daisy 2 that I painted a year or two earlier. This painting is quite realistic, but I still put something extra into it, something of myself...
New Beginning
A new beginning
I walked a path full of darkness and pain through the fantasy of my mind, blinded by my ego and wounded emotional body. But in reality, I was paralyzed. I could do nothing, let alone create.
I'm in a relationship that shows me my wounds. It showed me the pain from the past that I projected onto its significant other. My ego tried to convince me that she was the one hurting me. But it really had nothing to do with her. I was just continuing to experience my long-forgotten emotions.
After a long period of pain, it's time to move on. To rise again from the abandoned floor, look up to new horizons and find your light.
I want to start focusing on what I want to achieve in life. Focus on my goals and dreams that fulfill me and give my life meaning. This also includes joining forces with my godly wife because we have the same mission, which is to share our story and inspire others.
If you are going through something similar, don't let it break you. Nothing lasts forever. No falling, no staying at the bottom, no pain. You can always get up again and move on...
Grounder
Anchoring in the present
Surrender
Handover
I feel like slowing down for a second and I'm drawn to get out of the apartment. Lately I've been letting myself go and listening to my intuition, which this time led me to my favourite spot in the nearby forest. I'm taking a notebook with me to write my thoughts and reflect.
I arrived in the forest and set out in the direction of adventure. I knew where to go, without knowing where I was going. I found a nice spot under a tree, sat down, and leaned against it. It was beautiful and quiet. Just nature, the breeze, and me…
Inner Strength
Inner strength
Although it may not seem like it, lately I have been going through a very challenging period, which is full of huge and fundamental changes in my life. From day to day everything changes and becomes the opposite. Everything I thought was certain is no longer certain and everything I thought I knew I probably don't know. It all makes me afraid of an uncertain future. From not knowing what will happen to me tomorrow. I don't know how I'm going to pay all the bills or if this is the last time I'm seeing my loved one. Sometimes I don't even know if what I'm doing has any meaning.
I need to find myself again. I need to find my strength, my guidance, my self-love and my worth. I feel like I don't even notice the path I'm on anymore. I'm walking on autopilot with a head full of thoughts that blind me and instead of reality show me a world full of illusions, lies and doubts that then awaken old wounds in me...
Leap of Faith
Leap into the unknown
The more I meditate and heal old psychic wounds, the more I see that I am not going through life on quite the right path. The voice that always told me what was best for me is getting louder and louder and I am no longer able to live in the old ways. I cease to be able to continue to live in the ideas of society by ignoring myself and the meaning of my life. The time is coming for me to make the hardest decision of my life so far. It's a huge risk, it's a leap into the unknown, and it goes against everything others say. It could hurt me, it could kill me.
But it's also a leap of faith. I don't know what awaits me on the other side, but I believe in a better future...
Abundance
Energy of abundance
I made this artwork shortly after meditation, when I was filled with a feeling of abundance, feeling that I had enough money and things, just everything I needed. It's about accepting my current life situation and it's also about believing that everything I desire will come to me sooner or later. I wanted to express this feeling on canvas, I wanted to capture it so that it would stay with me longer.
When I painted it, I was in a state of connection to my higher self, completely calm and balanced. It happened easily and spontaneously, as if every move had been planned in advance...
Everything Has a Purpose
Everything has its meaning.
…Everything you've been through,
all good or bad
everything that ever happened to you
every single experience
brought you to this moment.
It made you strong enough
It made you good enough to
to succeed.
Everything has a meaning
you just have to find it.
In the end it all makes sense,
it always makes sense.
Unlimited Potential
Infinite potential
I feel an infinite potential within me that is no longer just a dream.
It flows and, like raindrops, descends into my life on a physical level.
I give up my limiting beliefs, I don't believe in negative thoughts, I heal my wounds.
Everything is done.
Different
Other energy
The idea for this piece comes from something that happened to me when I was meditating. I filled my body with a different energy (perhaps the energy of my higher self) and saw my life as if I were someone completely different. For a moment I felt very powerful and like someone who could change everything. It wasn't just a dream. It was as if my mind was filled with another consciousness. It wasn't me, my ego.
At first glance, this work may seem like just a battle between good and evil, or the light and dark sides of man. But that wasn't entirely the intention. I wanted to capture the difference that different energy, different thoughts, different feelings, and different memories can make in life. It's like looking at your life in another parallel universe...
Termination of My Anguish Addiction
The end of pain
I accept the pain
but I'm not going to be its prisoner anymore.
It has nothing more to give me
other than a strange sense of security.
That's why I'm done feeling powerless.
After the realization
of my anguish addiction
I made a decision
for its termination
and chose the state of creation
health and prosperity
as my new priority.
Poppies
Works for charity auction
I was given the opportunity to paint a painting for the REGI Base foundation, which created a charitable art project to support disabled war veterans and contemporary heroes. It was an exhibition called Poppies in Paintings 2020, which included 27 paintings created by 25 contemporary artists. All the paintings were auctioned and the proceeds went to a good cause…
Daisy
Paintings inspired by the beauty of flowers
I took a picture of a flower once. However, I still like the photo so much that I decided to immortalize it on canvas. It's not as abstract as the other images, but at least I proved to myself that I can do something else. This photo, and now the painting, has a kind of value to me that I don't know how to put into words.